I’m afraid that you will make an exception for me

I’m afraid that you will make an
exception for me
Lord I beseech you do not save me
that would be more manly
do not save me
in spite of my prayers
a schoolchild repenting a first mortal sin
I shall implore you unceasingly
do not save me
with my tears I shall fill
all your receptacles
your dented thimbles
your enormous barrels
I shall sob
in all your holed black socks
Lord I beg you do not save me
 let the rat
diligent worker driller of tunnels
build a road through my belly
let the wolf
locked within me
noisily chew my face
rather marvel to see us
more than ever you marvelled
at seeing smitten lovers
Lord I beseech you do not save me
hear my prayer pure ice broken up
do not save me
I know you have never saved anyone
but I am afraid that you will make an exception for me
I beseech you Lord do not save me
I beseech you do not save me